Fellowship

This series is in response to a Quaker meeting split in 2017 along the lines of  whether gay marriage would be affirmed or not.  The aftermath of this event has caused grief, anger and an abundance of thoughts and feelings on the parts of many in this community. This series evaluates, frames and processes this…

When you met me, and I was not at my best

Dismay I might have spoken too fast. I might have taken rabbit trails on my train of thought. I might have had water coming from my eyes for no apparent reason. I might have seemed anxious. And awkward I was. Because I needed.  Too much. At that time. Because behind my face all of the…

Pivoting

ChezWhat? is an old site.  I have been writing here now for 12 years. Most of what fills this space has been an exercise of writing as a personal endeavor.  Gratitude, controversy, art or talking about things that have happened recently or long ago has been the realm of ChezWhat? But I am going to…

the story

because perhaps i have been here so long, the story can’t be told without the pictures. and because i have been here for so long, there are so, so many pictures. some so old, you may have seen them before. but regardless, they tell the story of lives.  firsts.   and of blessing granted. pictures…

Worlds apart

Originally posted on ChezWhat?:
it is good to hear the tale of someone who has met success by being inspired and following through.  -David Adamshick The fluorescent lights always buzzed. Sometimes, after being there for a long time, I wore them like a heavy coat I couldn’t wait to take off at home. The plastic…

Ideas I love: Kintsugi

Several years back there was a violent death of five individuals that touched our family.  All the deaths were born out of generational trauma and the ultimate price was paid by a brilliant and beautiful young man and four members of a marginalized group of people doing nothing more than going to the doctor in another…

Graduating.

Traveler, there is no road.

Make the road by going.

By going, you make the way

Rarified Places: Kalmykia

The cars in the industrial grease and creosote smelling stations had names on their sides of strange places.  One such place was “Dagestan”.  My silly mind went to Doggystan. This Russian train is clearly marked to go to Moscow, which was the hub for nearly all this 11-time-zone spanning country. Amidst all the metal, people,…

Stories from Russia: Easter

The place:  One of 20 some ethnic republics inside of Russia, this one with a history going back to the Khans and Turks.  Chuvashia.  Where even Russian isn’t the first language.  A gentle, quiet people with deep hearts.  I am visiting their schools, traveling with a staunch senior lady who is first in my eyes…

Political Correctness (a repost from 2005)

Published in 2005, long before Portlandia… If you have ever listened to Dandy Warhols or listened to Damali Ayo talk about Portland types, it’s clear that I am not alone in noticing Portland types are often a sort of..different. I say this with love, I am a Portlander and I work with Portland “types”.  Recently…